pictures.

which one do you like best?

Cause baby you're a firework, come on show them what you're worth. Make them go uh uh uh, as you shoot across the sky. Baby you're a firework, come on baby let your colors burst. :)

i took your matches before fire could catch me.

Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything, and everybody believed in you?

it feels good to know I'm special to someone out there♥

please don't be in love with someone, please don't have somebody waiting on you.

so good!

Matthew 6:34
God, sometimes life becomes so stressful and overwhelming. Help me to stop worrying. Give me your peace. I have faith that you'll take care of me. :)


540th post:D

all i know is that i still love you.

We always tell ourselves we're over it. well im gonna stand up and say what everyone is actually thinking. the truth is, i never got over it. i just held all the pain in, and ignored it. Now that i see i still have all the hurt & love left in me..im stuck, and i don't know what to do.
You say to yourself "i hate him." or you just choose to cry in your bedroom alone at night. but im gonna stand up and say, sure maybe im hurt and maybe you broke my heart...but no matter what ill always be there when you need me, and ill always love you cause i was meant to.
God didn't put us together for no reason. No matter how much i ignore you or block you out, you will always be on my mind at the night when i sit there in my bed just thinking.
when people put you down, sure i go along with it. but in the back of my mind i miss you so much and all i want is to jump right back into your arms.
but i control myself, you say you're waiting for me arms open wide cause you still love me..but i know whats best. & i know it hurts, but i know what God would want.
and what i need to do is just acknowledge that i love you, but not put anything into action.

someone posted a status about acknowledging your true feelings, and i couldn't go without writing a blog about it. :)

october 31st

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE :)

what is everyone doing this scary night?

SPEAK NOW!

Sorry i haven't posted in a while, life has been stressful.
I got taylor swifts new C.D. called "SPEAK NOW"...and let me just say I LOVE IT. :)

" 'Speak now or forever hold your peace,' the words said by preachers at the end of wedding ceremonies all over the world, right before the vows. It's a last chance for protest, a moment that makes everyone's heart race, and a moment I've always been strangely fascinated by. So many fantasize about bursting into a church, saying what they'd kept inside for years like in the movie. In real life, it rarely happens. Real life is a funny thing, you know. In real life, saying the right thing at the right moment is beyond crucial. So crucial,in fact, that most of us start to hesitate, for fear of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. But lately what I've begun to fear more than that is letting the moment pass without saying anything. I think most of us fear reaching the end of our life, and looking back regretting the moments we didn't speak up. When we didn't say 'I love you.' when we should've said 'I'm sorry.' When we didn't stand up for ourselves or someone who needed help. These songs are made up of words I didn't say when the moment was right in front of me. These songs are open letters. Each is written with a specific person in mind, telling them what I meant to tell them in person. To the beautiful boy whose heart I broke in December. To my first love who I never thought would be my first heartbreak. To my band. To a mean man I used to be afraid of. To someone who made my world very dark for a while. To a girl who stole something of mine. To someone I forgive for what he said in front of the whole world.Words can break someone into a million pieces, but they can also put them back together. I hope you use yours for good, because the only words you'll regret more than the ones left unsaid are the ones you use to intentionally hurt someone. What you say might be too much for some people. Maybe it will come out all wrong and you'll stutter and you'll walk away embarrassed, wincing as you play it all back in your head. But i think the words you stop yourself from saying are the ones that will haunt you the longest. Say it to them. Or say it to yourself in the mirror. Say it in a letter you'll never send of in a book millions might read someday. I think you deserve to look back on your life without a chorus of resounding voices saying 'I could've, but it's too late now.' There is a time for silence. There is a time waiting your turn. But if you know how you feel, and you so clearly know what you need to say, you'll know it. I don't think you should wait. I think you should speak now." Taylor Alison Swift <3

From each of her 14 songs on her CD im going to post my favorite lyric/phrase on that song to share with you..cause all i can say, is that CD really inspires me :)

1. "Do you remember we were sitting there by the water? you put your arm around me for the first time. you made a rebel of a careless mans careful daughter. you are the best thing that's ever been mine"

2."Drop everything now, meet me in the pouring rain, kiss me on the sidewalk, take away the pain! cause i see sparks fly whenever you smile. Hit me with those green eyes, baby as the lights go down..give me something that will hold me when your not around"

3. "so this is me swallowing my pride. standing in front of you saying im sorry for that night. and i go back to December all the time. turns out freedom ain't nothin but missing you, realizing what i had when you were mine. and i got back to December turn around and make it all right, i got back to December all the time"

4. "Don't say yes, run away now. I'll meet you when you're out of the church in the back door. Don't wait or say a single vow, you need to hear me out. And they said speak now."

5. "Dear john, i see it all now that you're gone. Don't you think i was to young to be messed with. The girl in the dress cried the whole way home. Shoulda known."

6."Someday i'll be livin in a big ole city, and all you're ever gonna be is mean. Some day ill be big enough so you cant hit me. And all you're ever gonna be is mean. why you gotta be so mean?"

7."Now im standing alone in a crowded room. and we're not speaking. and im dying to know is it killing you like its killing me, yeah? i don't know what to say since a twist of fate when it all broke down. and the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now. next chapter."

8."Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up. Just stay this little. Oh darlin don't you ever grow up, dont ya ever grow up. Just stay this simple. I wont let nobody hurt you, wont let nobody break your heart. No one will desert you, just try to never grow up."

9. THIS IS MY FAVORITE SONG:) "All i can say is it was enchanting to meet you, you're eyes whisper have we met? cross your room, your sillouhette starts to make its way to me. the playful conversation starts, counter all your quick remarks like passing notes in secrecy. And it was enchanting to meet you. All i can say i was enchanted to meet you."

10. "Shes not a saint, and shes not what you think. She's an actress, woahh. Shes better known of the things she does on the matress, woahh. Soon shes gonna find stealing other peoples toys on the playground wont make you many friends, she should keep in mind..she should keep in mind, there's nothing more that i do better than revenge."

11. "Wasn't it easier in your lunch box days? always a bigger bed to crawl into. Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything, and everybody believed in you? Its alright just wait and see your string of lights are sitll bright to me. who you are is not where you've been, you're still as innocent."

12. "COme on come don't leave me like this. I thought i had you figured out, somethings gone terribly wrong. you were all i wanted, come on come on dont leave me like this, i thought i had you figured out. cant breathe whenever your gone, can't turn back now im haunted."

13. "I never thought we'd have a last kiss. Never imagined we'd end like this. You're mean, remember the name of my lips. I do remember the swing of your steps. The life of the party, you're showing off again..and i roll my eyes and then you pull me and im not much for dancing but for you i did."

14."long live the walls that crashed through, all the kingdom lights shined just for me and you. I was screaming long live all the magic we made. and bring on all the pretenders one day the world we remembered."

there's a reason

God is great isn't he?
Even though my life sucks, im glad he gave me the life i live because without it, i wouldnt know so many amazing people, learned from so many mistakes, and grown in my relationship with the Lord. Whoever is reading this i hope you know that God loves you sooooo ubber much, its undescribable. Also know that even though life gets tough and sometimes you just with you could quit, dont give up. Because God puts you through things for a reason, and when all is said and done you'll be stronger and more relatable. Thanks God for hard times, honestly they make me grow even though i hate them!

music

Imagine life without music?
Basically my whole life revolves around music, i sing...well you singing is music so i couldn't do that. i dance and dancing wouldn't even have been invented without music, the majority of dancing i do is to music.. when i come home from school what do i automatically do? listen to my favorite music and relax. Music takes me to a different place, it takes me somewhere i'd rather be. Life without music would be sad, lonely, and there would be no imagination. People become famous because their talents revolve around the music industry, where would they be without music? where would i be without music? well first off, i'd feel like i wasn't given any talents...cause basically all my talents belong to music. second of all how would i express my love to the Lord? cause worship is my main way of showing thanks to God. Third of all i bond with people and grow relationships just based on our love for music.
God thank you so much for creating music, you have no idea how awesome it is that you brought such an amazing thing into all our lives:)



535th post:)