My life has been far from easy, the day i came out of the womb i was born with dyslexia. Not just the normal case of dyslexia, but a case of dyslexia doctors even said was nearly impossible to function in a normal school with. But here i am in honors classes, proving to the world God can defeat any problem. People tell me all the time "You're stupid" or "Why don't you get it, it's not that hard." But little do they know the brain God has given me. I learn differently, i am nowhere near mentally disabled, but i just simply learn in more of an artistic way. Even though dyslexia has been such an overwhelming and stressful problem in my life it has taught me so much. And I'm actually thankful God gave it to me, because without it i wouldn't be the sympathetic God loving girl i am today.
My family life has always been a challenge. Our whole family has A.D.H.D or A.D.D. including myself. Our family is also emotional, crazy, and out spoken, and very far from what you would consider a "normal" family. My whole life I have fought with each of my family members in a different way. Until this year, has God started showing how many miracles He truly can do. I use to hate my family, each one of them..which is so sad to say, because my family is my everything now. I can't imagine going through the half of the things i have gone through without my mom by my side. My sister and i actually get along and we're actually bestfriends now. My brother and i don't talk much, but that's better than fighting in my opinion. And my Dad and i have our disagreements just like i have with all the rest of my family members but i do appreciate him and all he's done for this family. To see my family go from fighting constantly, every single second to actually loving each other and accepting each other is probably the most beautiful thing i have ever seen.
I've led two people to Christ in my lifetime, and those two moments have probably been one of the most rewarding moments of my life. One of the times i was going through such a difficult time inside my heart with my relationship with the Lord...and I was constantly praying to Him that He would show Himself to me and let His pressence be known to me. Little did i know He was going to do EXACTLY what i asked for. That night God literally spoke through me, i didn't know the next word i was about to say and i felt God seriously speaking through my mouth. After I was done talkinig i was just shaking and trembling and i couldn't control my tears. I felt Gods pressence more that night than i ever have in my life. GOD IS ALL POWERFUL!
Of all the broken relationships in my life God has always shown himself in them. To breakups, too close friendships ending God has never left my side. Life has never been easy for me with friends, mostly because people tend to misunderstand me (It's apart of my dyslexia), and I'm also very outspoken and blunt and i call my friends out on things other people wouldn't because i care. I love my friends, and God has blessed me with some amazing friendships. Even though their are ups & downs in friendships, If you have God involved in your relationship..believe me, it'll over come stupid drama and work itself out.
God has blessed my life with music, dancing, and acting as well. Singing is my life, without singing i have no idea where i would be. Singing is my everything, my outlet, its who i am, its the way i express myself. Dancing is another passion of mine, although i've only been dancing two years I've always loved to dance, and is an amazing way i worship God. Acting has always been my thing, I was born to be on stage, i just love performing. God has blessed me with these talents, and i can't thank him enough. Even though I'm not the best at all of these things, which i can definitely admit that. But i don't suck, and i give all the glory and credit to God..He has truly shown Himself through the talents He has given me.
I've gone through some VERY hard things, which I'm not comfortable sharing with the world. But all i can say is going through those things was definitely horrible at the time, but coming out of it all okay gave me such an unbelievable respect for the Lord. He truly NEVER gives up on his sons and daughters, thank goodness God is merciful.
At one time in my life I've literally hated God, which is so sad to say but I admit it. Too go from absolutely hating God, and not understanding what the hell he was doing in my life, too blaming Him for every problem i had and have, too just having anger towards God in general...To loving Him with every fiber in my being, to every inch of my heart, to every breath i take is.....MIRACULOUS. I can't put into words how much God has saved me from the life i use to live, and how much God has taught me, and shown me. Without God in my life I'd be no one, I'm worthless without God. He's my rock, my truth, my guide, my leader, my friend, my idol, my father, my savior, my Lord, my heart, my spirit, my EVERYTHING. God i cannot put into words how thankful i am for you and what You've done in my life. I just pray that everyone feels the passion i feel for you.
My life verse.
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understandings. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.
