Monday, July 26, 2010

songs(:

"One less bell to answer
one less egg to fry
one less man to pick up after
i should happy
but all i do is cry
cry cry
no more laughter
i should be happy
oh why did he go?
i only know since he left my lifes so empty
though i try to forget it, it just can't be done
each time the door bell rings, i still run
i dont know how in the world to stop thinking of him
cause i still love him so
and everyday i start the same, crying my heart out
one less bell to answer
one less egg to fry
one less man to pick up after
no more laughter
no more love
since he went away
since he went away"

"I've been alone with my mind
and in my dreams ive kissed your lips a thousand times
i soemtimes see you pass outside my door
hello?
is it me your for?
i can see it your eyes
i can see it your smile
your all i've ever wanted
and my arms are open wide
cause you know just what to say
and you know just what to do
and i want to tell you so much
i love you
I long to see sunlight in your hair
and tell you time and time again how much i care
sometimes i feel heart will overflow
hello?
ive just got to let you know
cause i wonder where you are
and i wonder what you do
are you somewhere feeling lonely?
or someone loving you?
tell me how to win your heart
cause i havent got a clue
but let me start by saying
i love you."

490th postt:DD

beachhh:D









Went to the beach thursday & friday
thursday:Me and maddie took a trip with eachother and had a good bonding time for sure:)
"HELLO THERE
SUPP?
FAIL."
haha i love my maddie girl.
Friday:for my friends b-day party, me amy and maddie all took pics and tanned:) i love them too.
have you been to the beach this summer, if so had any fun?:)

bike rides&a picnic:)






picnic withh julia((:
sooo on saturday, me and julia rode bikes
and had a picnic:)
then went swimming
went to her brothers baseball game (and met the love of my life, EDDIE FANCO...SOOO HOT)
anyways....then i slept over
then church the next morning
it was a funnn summer day:)
Anything exciting happen this weekend?

finally posting






"A chair is still a chair, even when there's no one sitting there
but a chair is not a house
and a house is not a home
when there's no one there to hold you tight
and no one there you can kiss goodnight.
A room is still a room
even when there's nothing there but gloom
But a room is not a house
and a house is not a home
when the two of us are far apart
and one of us has a broken heart.
Now and then i call your name
and suddenly a face appears
But it's just a crazy game
and when it ends it ends it tears.
So darling have a heart
don't let one mistake keep us apart
Im not meant to live alone
turn this house into a home
when i climb the stair and turn the key oh please be there."

Sorry i haven't been posting in forever i've been pretty darn busy, i'll upload pictures of the adventures i've had in the past few days(:
How have you all been?

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

writing, haven't in a while.





i will sooth your brain
ill seek you out
but you slip past my eyes
one more time
and you wont survive
im scared of your power
but i can rise through your heart any hour
ohh i feel the pain in the night
stab me like no surprise
but then i feel this beat
this beat inside my heart
and even though in pain
i beat for you
beat, beat,
bum bum
bam bam
run, run.
im chasing this love, to far
catch me if you can
this game is lovers til the end
peek-a-boo
shot at you
stress i know,
but hope youll be mine
by the end of time
cause ive got you all rapped up
in a blue box with ribbon on-top
trusting you
to fall back in time and chase me down
before i let you go,
you must promise me so
that youll never leave me alone
drop down dead if you must
but hold onto the past that we have lost
your eyes
your kiss
the milky dress
i use to wear that day we forgot
about us
about me
about you
we've lost.

Keys, get played and touched on a black shiny piano

Covered in songs of love and hurt

The white keys your fingers gently brush

Across my heart I feel the music

Across my heart I feel the melody you play

Its so beautiful

And simple

Join me in this keyboard game

Piano game

Join with me in this song of redemption

Call on me

And I will never leave

Take a glass of my blood

And cover it in your shame

I’ve felt hurt before

Just like you

I can be there for you

Falling down

Falling into the ground



Heard you calling

But I couldn’t respond

The tears in my eyes never left me once

For hope was lost, and love was never found

In deep submission I broke down

And took my fall right in front of you

Cause im hurt

And alone

And im without a doubt drowned

Pain

Loss

Hope

Tears

Joy

Love

Gain

All this has been an adventure

But time to move on

Time to never go back

Whispers of hope

Flash back, reach down my back

Chills of love cover me at last

But I have this feeling

Like your dead

Like your gone

But then this feeling erases inside my heart

Cause all I wanted was to be with you

To be with you

All I ever needed was your love

Was your love

Every time I see you

I get stuck

I get stuck

Cause life isn’t worth living

If your not around

If your not there

Cause I tried to escape the pain inside my beating chest

But ignoring me wasn’t going to work

Its already hard enough to face my own heart.

Monday, July 19, 2010

grace.











Sing a new song, to Him who sits on heavens mercy seat.
Holy, holy, is He!
With all creation i sing praise to the King of Kings.
and i will adore You.
Flashes of lighting, roles of thunder.

I went to CTV's dance show the other night, and it was really really awesome. But one thing that stuck out to me, it wasn't the show at all. It was more the message that Jill (the CTV director) talked about.
She talked about God dying on the cross, and i was like "oh great, heard this story like 4 billion times, why do i always have to listen to this stuff i know?"
But then she brought up How EVERY single sin ever done, doing, or did has been laid of Gods chest.
Just imagine our own daily lives, all the sins we do in just ONE DAY. Well take every single person in the world and over their life time take all their sins, with all sins put together. All laid on Jesus, who we rebuke, a shame, and sin against everyday.
God shows absolutely true love, he has the power to kill us all right now in less then a blink of an eye, and yet he loves us unconditionally and forgives all our sins.
Now i can't imagine a better picture of grace, than Jesus laying on the cross for my sins.
I can't really get the full impact in a blog post, but just think about it.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

John mayer

"Just when i had you off my head
Your voice comes thrashing wildly through my quiet bed
You say you wanna try again
But i've tried everything but giving in
Why you wanna break my heart again?
Why am i gonna let you try?
When all we ever do is say goodbye
I bought a ticket on a plane
And by the time it landed, you were gone again
I love you more than songs can say
But i can't keep running after yesterday
So why you wanna break my heart again?
Why am i gonna let you try?
When all we ever do is say goodbye,
when all we ever do is say goodbye."

"I was born in the arms of imaginary friends, free to roam, made a home out of everywhere i've been. Then you came crashing in, like the realest thing. Trying my best to understand all that your love can bring.
Oh, half of my heart's got a grip on the situation. Half of my heart takes time, half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you that i can't keep loving you. Oh with half of my heart.
I was made to believe i'd never love somebody else, made a plan, stay in the man who can only love himself. Lonely was the song i sang, til the day you came, showing me another way and all that my love can bring"

"lighting strike, inside my chest to keep me up at night.
Dream of ways, to make you understand my pain.
Clouds of sulphur in the air, bombs are falling everywhere.
It's a heartbreak warfare.
Once you want it to begin, no one really ever wins.
In heartbreak warfare.
If you want more love, why don't you say so?
Drop his name, push it in and twist the knife again.
Watch my face, as i pretend to feel no pain."


i LOVE john Mayer, like you can't get a much more sexy lyric and song from him. I mean he may not be the most attractive man ever, but he sure as hell looks attractive after you go through his lyrics. He seriously gives me the chills, and i just wanna cuddle up into a blanket and turn him on loud and just cry, sleep, laugh, and listen:)
dang he's great.