The Body of Christ.

The body of Christ.
And i'm not just talking about the church, I'm talking about my fellow believers who i know and love.
GOD.BLESS.YOU.
Ever since i found out my dad had cancer and informed everyone, i couldn't believe the love and acceptance a lot of people gave me.
some people were just like "well im sorry, i'll pray" Which was nice don't get me wrong, but it didn't mean that much.
But i had people send reactiosns i didn't even except. THE LOVE I FELT, it was amazing:) Who knew God could work so much through a phone call or text message? Certain friends of mine have grown even closer through this, because they really genuinely cared. it meant a lot.
Even though I'm going through such a hard time right now, God is showing His love to me through all the support I'm getting from some people.
God bless the people who are there for me through each step, you know who you are:)

Today my life has taken a turn.

Hey everyone, my dad just informed us that he has cancer... he only has a few more years to live. Please have my dad in your prayers, along with our family.
Thanks.
GOD IS ALL-POWERFUL.

the adventure

Okay so me and my guy friend were texting last night, and he was like "wanna escape with me?" and i was like "to where" and he replied "it's imaginary, you go in your mind and heart" then i said "okay why not."
So i thought i'd share the texting conversation, cause it was really unique and it was probably the funnest texting i've done in a while.

him-"in our heart and minds. We just stepped away from the everything and are taking our breaths."
me-"That sounds freaking lovely."
him-"join me now"
me-"Okay :)"
him-"I don't see"
me-"You don't see what?"
him-"i don't see you."
me- "well where should i meet you?"
him-"At that one place!"
me-"What place? I need some direction, for my eyes are blocked with too many tears."
him-"Here I'll run over for i have a box of kleenex and then i shall direct you."
me-"Okay..Run fast, I've been standing in the cold all night. Just waiting for someone to rescue me. When will you be here?"
him-"When I'm able to find you"
me-"Are you looking? I'm right there! Standing right by you..almost close enough to touch."
him-"I think i've found you."
me- "Good. I needed to be found."
him-"Hows the kleenex?"
me-"Good, it's really soft. Thanks for giving it to me"
him-"Now lets go! We need to climb mountains to reach our destination."
me-"Okay, I'm ready! Lead me to where we gotta go."
him-"Okay we go straight through the darkness and over the two mountains and we're their."
me-"Okay. lets go :)
What happens when we reach our destination though?
him-"I don't know, we got to go with the flow. All i know is there's a surprise guest waiting for you."
me-"A surprise guest? Lets run as fast we can, i need to get there already! How much longer?"
him-"We're at the gate..And your guest is here waiting."
me-"Whose my guest? I can't see very well, my eyes are still a little moist"
him-"Michael. An invitation from me to him just for you. I'll leave you two alone now for your conversations. :)"
me-"MICHAEL :D (he greets me with one of his famous warm hugs, that makes my smile grow even brighter) But why can't we all talk? Yiu don't have to leave just yet."
him-"But i have already. I walked off into the sunset. for my mission is complete."
me-"what was your mission exactly? Well guess what? I'm chasing you down in that sunset. For i stick by your side."
him-"To bring you to a place and person that will make you happy. And why run after me? I'm of no use."
me-"I am happy! But michael will come to me when he's less busy. And you're of no use? why would you think that? I hear from villagers you're quite the prince charming."
him-"I'll make him less busy. And to some i am but to most im a burdened outlaw."
me-How are you going to make sir michael less busy?
And who are you an outlaw too?"
him-"I haven't figured it out that far yet. And to all the people i've caused pain and hurt to including you."
me-"Well tell me when you have a plan, cause i'd love to hear it.
Well...make yourself more of a prince instead of an outlaw from now on. yeah?"
him-"Okay and it's not quite that easy."
me-"Why isn't it easy? I heard being a prince can be quite an easy role to play, you just have to do it right."
him-"Yeah but the prince is for the good looking hefty men, not lowlives like me."
me-"Don't be so down on yourself."
him-"I'm not. It's the society this village that has put my mindset like that."
me-"What did the society of villagers say to you?"
him-"I'm an outlaw of nothingness."
me-"Well you can't let the villagers tell you who you are. Only people of importance in your heart should their opinion matter to you. right?"
him-"Right. But whom is of importance?"
me-"whoever is in your heart. So tell me sir villager, who is of importance to you?"
him-"I do not know..I need to go on a quest to figure that out."
me-I'll go on that quest with you. Just let me know the time and place and i'll be there. sword in hand, smile on face"
him-"Oh you have a sword? Cause all i got is pebbles."
me-"You may have my sword. For I just decided something to myself that i will be fighting NO more wars. For peace has struck through my heart. And battle cries I'll hear no more."

After that the friend replied "umm WOAH, poetic"

I just thought i'd share with you my little adventure last night ;)

quotes

"You don't have to feel like a wasted space, you're original cannot be replaced. If you only knew what the future holds, after a hurricane comes a rainbow. Maybe a reason why all the doors are closed, so you could open one that leads you to the perfect road. Like a lighting bolt, your heart will glow."

"She's strong enough to walk away, but broken enough to look back"

"I can't wait to say goodbye to 2010. To bitchy assholes, to lonely nights, to broken promises, to fucked up pains.."

"I wonder what it feels like to be one of those pretty girls that all the guys want."

"I know this is pathetic, but when i look at you, I just think of how much I'd like to cuddle with you. I think about how your skin would feel pressed against mine. I think about how beautiful and lovely you really are. I often find myself wondering if I'm alone in this. I fucking want you. But i don't know where you stand. ALL i want is to be with you."

"Just because her eyes don't tear doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry. And just because she comes off strong, doesn't mean there's nothing wrong."

"After a while you learn you don't need anyone else to survive. No one is ever going to always be there for you no matter what they promise you. You just gotta suck it up and accept it."


Found all these quotes, and kind of fell in love with all of them.
Excuse the language, haha.

mercy.

If there's one thing i've learned these past few weeks. is that God is merciful.
kind, clement, lenient, forgiving, benignant, tender, sympathetic.
God is amazing.
Quote from my mom "Jennalee, you've shed enough tears for the whole entire year."
and although i've been crying uncontrollably for the past two weeks, God has never ceased to be there for me. He is ALWAYS comforting me, loving me, holding me, being there for me, teaching me, and leading me.
These past few weeks have been hell, but i've grown so close to the Lord through all of this.
And i can't believe im saying this, but im thankful God has put these hard times in my life, because i've gained so much through my relationship with God these past few weeks.
I learned i just can't do it on my own, the only way i can make it is to lean on God..the all knowing, powerful, merciful, beautiful, majestic, wonderful, bigger than the universe God.
God is merciful, amen?

It hurts that you don't even try

I'm in love with love.

Side note; If y'all hate or get annoyed with how many pictures i post let me know. I find them beautiful and inspirational(:

Try.

Asher Book-try.
On fame.(:
"If i walk would you run?
If i stop would you come?
If i say you're the one would you believe me?
If i ask you to stay would you show me the way?
Tell me what to say, so you don't leave me
The world is catching up to you
Now you're running away
To chase your dreams
Its time for us to make a move
Cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe I'm not ready
But i ill try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough
I would try for your love
I can hide up above
If i walk would you run?
If i stop would you come?
If i say you're the one would you believe me?"

570th pooosssst:D