potiental breakup song.

You're not living until you're living for me.
Cause without me you know you're lost, minus you I'm better off.
You can try you can try, you know it'd be a lie. without me you're gonna die.

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My name is Jennalee Joy Johnson, and guess what? I'm a sinner. Too write just a simple note on how God has saved/impacted/changed/blessed my life is impossible. To even sum up what God has done in my life i close to impossible, but I'm going to try anyways.

My life has been far from easy, the day i came out of the womb i was born with dyslexia. Not just the normal case of dyslexia, but a case of dyslexia doctors even said was nearly impossible to function in a normal school with. But here i am in honors classes, proving to the world God can defeat any problem. People tell me all the time "You're stupid" or "Why don't you get it, it's not that hard." But little do they know the brain God has given me. I learn differently, i am nowhere near mentally disabled, but i just simply learn in more of an artistic way. Even though dyslexia has been such an overwhelming and stressful problem in my life it has taught me so much. And I'm actually thankful God gave it to me, because without it i wouldn't be the sympathetic God loving girl i am today.

My family life has always been a challenge. Our whole family has A.D.H.D or A.D.D. including myself. Our family is also emotional, crazy, and out spoken, and very far from what you would consider a "normal" family. My whole life I have fought with each of my family members in a different way. Until this year, has God started showing how many miracles He truly can do. I use to hate my family, each one of them..which is so sad to say, because my family is my everything now. I can't imagine going through the half of the things i have gone through without my mom by my side. My sister and i actually get along and we're actually bestfriends now. My brother and i don't talk much, but that's better than fighting in my opinion. And my Dad and i have our disagreements just like i have with all the rest of my family members but i do appreciate him and all he's done for this family. To see my family go from fighting constantly, every single second to actually loving each other and accepting each other is probably the most beautiful thing i have ever seen.

I've led two people to Christ in my lifetime, and those two moments have probably been one of the most rewarding moments of my life. One of the times i was going through such a difficult time inside my heart with my relationship with the Lord...and I was constantly praying to Him that He would show Himself to me and let His pressence be known to me. Little did i know He was going to do EXACTLY what i asked for. That night God literally spoke through me, i didn't know the next word i was about to say and i felt God seriously speaking through my mouth. After I was done talkinig i was just shaking and trembling and i couldn't control my tears. I felt Gods pressence more that night than i ever have in my life. GOD IS ALL POWERFUL!

Of all the broken relationships in my life God has always shown himself in them. To breakups, too close friendships ending God has never left my side. Life has never been easy for me with friends, mostly because people tend to misunderstand me (It's apart of my dyslexia), and I'm also very outspoken and blunt and i call my friends out on things other people wouldn't because i care. I love my friends, and God has blessed me with some amazing friendships. Even though their are ups & downs in friendships, If you have God involved in your relationship..believe me, it'll over come stupid drama and work itself out.

God has blessed my life with music, dancing, and acting as well. Singing is my life, without singing i have no idea where i would be. Singing is my everything, my outlet, its who i am, its the way i express myself. Dancing is another passion of mine, although i've only been dancing two years I've always loved to dance, and is an amazing way i worship God. Acting has always been my thing, I was born to be on stage, i just love performing. God has blessed me with these talents, and i can't thank him enough. Even though I'm not the best at all of these things, which i can definitely admit that. But i don't suck, and i give all the glory and credit to God..He has truly shown Himself through the talents He has given me.

I've gone through some VERY hard things, which I'm not comfortable sharing with the world. But all i can say is going through those things was definitely horrible at the time, but coming out of it all okay gave me such an unbelievable respect for the Lord. He truly NEVER gives up on his sons and daughters, thank goodness God is merciful.

At one time in my life I've literally hated God, which is so sad to say but I admit it. Too go from absolutely hating God, and not understanding what the hell he was doing in my life, too blaming Him for every problem i had and have, too just having anger towards God in general...To loving Him with every fiber in my being, to every inch of my heart, to every breath i take is.....MIRACULOUS. I can't put into words how much God has saved me from the life i use to live, and how much God has taught me, and shown me. Without God in my life I'd be no one, I'm worthless without God. He's my rock, my truth, my guide, my leader, my friend, my idol, my father, my savior, my Lord, my heart, my spirit, my EVERYTHING. God i cannot put into words how thankful i am for you and what You've done in my life. I just pray that everyone feels the passion i feel for you.

My life verse.

Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understandings. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.

A bit much to handle.

So much has happened in these past 3 weeks.
I lost my bestfriend that i had throughout all of 8th grade.
I've cried so much this week its ridiculous.
I almost lost another bestfriend.
I just got over being sick for TWO MONTHS.
The one person i don't like one bit has now decided to come back into my life...GROSS.
My friend group we all call the "family" has no basically split apart, but not quite yet.
I'm getting blamed for things that don't even have to do with me.
I've gotten yelled at, everyones crying around me including myself, and everyones stressed and overwhelmed.
Why God decided to do this to me? not quite sure. All i know is I'm going to follow this verse through all of it

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. ♥

megan.fate.

Summer Hume.2010.
Changed my life.
All because of one woman-Megan Fate.
Megan Fate as you can tell from her pictures, is full of joy all because God lives in her.
She just recently got married.
I couldn't help myself, i had to blog about it.
Shes my idol, seriously. My inspiration, i want to grow up and be a woman of God just like she is.
I love you Megan Fate, and i cannot wait to spend eternity in heaven with you. :)
I look up to you in so many ways, i can't even put into words of how beautiful inside and out you are.

Happy Birthday Taylor Swift, you're my idol & i love you so much! Your music has gotten me through some of my hardest times and still gets me through my rough days! ♥
This girl has been faithful to me, from all the drama, too all the broken hearts, this girl has known exactly how i was feeling. I've cried while singing ...to her songs, I've laughed & smiled while her songs, i've felt everything through her songs.
She's been my idol for a year straight now, she inspires me to go after my dreams. The woman is amazing, and can sing like no one else. The only country artist i like, SHES MY EVERYTHING!
I.LOVE.TAYLOR.SWIFT.

Happy 21st taylor, 12/13♥


565th post!

just don't hurt me

“After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and changing a soul. You learn that love does not mean leaning, and company does not mean security. You begin to learn that kisses are not contracts, and presents are not promises. You begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So plant your garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. You will learn that you really are strong and that you really do have worth.”-Shakespeare

“I suffer from Girl-Next-Dooritis syndrome where the guy is friends with you. And that’s it.”-Taylor swift

“Look, in my opinion the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what-have-you. The right person is still going to think the sun shines out of your ass. That’s the kind of person that’s worth sticking with.”