quotes.

When love is lost, do not bow your head in saddness; instead keep your head up high and gaze into heaven for that is where your broken heart has been sent to heal.
God can heal a broken heart, but He has to have all the pieces.
Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.
:)

everything reminds me of you

Dizzy.

That’s how you feel when you run into a significant other you haven’t seen in a long time. A bitter avalanche of icy memories plows into your chest at breakneck speed, stealing the very breath from your lungs. Gasping for air, there’s really no use fighting it; the blow is instantaneous and it’s overpowering. Your eyes land on this person, your heart immediately stops dead, your knees go weak and you internally panic. You force yourself to walk over, but before either of you say hello, you’ve already got an endless amount of things you secretly want to say and an equally lengthy list of questions you wish you could ask.

What affection the two of you once shared was absolutely beautiful, consequently rendering any unanticipated meetings thereafter twice as awkward. But as everyone always reminded you, life has a way of operating, God has a mysterious way of working, and sometimes things change without a moment’s warning. Even after it was all said and done, it’s still hard to imagine how things could’ve ever evolved from “always” to “never” in what seemed like a single dramatic heartbeat.

Months and months later, you run into this particular person unexpectedly and the realization hits you like a brick wall. The pain is still there. It’s almost as painful as the night you said goodbye. Enough time has passed to con you into thinking you’ve begun to heal, and of course you probably have, but then you see this person and suddenly those old familiar aches begin to hurt all over again. You were finally beginning to mend after what happened, the relationship withered and ended, however dramatically, but the moment you lock eyes with this person you once shared so many dreams with, your stomach turns and a bitter taste fills your mouth. You can barely breathe. Half of you aches for things to be the way they once were, the other half longs to forget the whole thing ever happened. Regardless of your role in the conclusion of the relationship, it left you shattered and bringing it up after all this time would only pour another dose of potent heartbreak for both of you.

So there you are, standing face-to-face, unsure of what to say aside from the typical small talk jabber. A myriad of emotions swirl through both your heads but they only make former lovers more confused. Maybe you hug an awkward I-haven’t-seen-you-in-forever gesture, but that familiar mixed scent of perfume and cologne makes it even more impossible to know how to act, brief as the impending conversation inevitably will be. You just can’t stop thinking “things will never be the way they used to be” and that’s what hurts most. You both know where your identities lie, Who ultimately claims your hearts and where your fortresses are… and those things are truly what matter most, but this unforeseen meeting is still severely painful and there’s no denying that. It keeps you both awake for nights.

this was written by adam young(owl city), and i absolutely fell in love with it. He can write like no other, he's one sexy man. i love you adam young, you're beautiful.

one of those days.

Ever have those days where everything inspires you, and all you want to do is take a walk and just listen to everything around you?
well today was one of those days for me.

soloshowcase.

Okay everyone...listen up!
Me and jordan gates are bestfriends if you didn't know that by now, but thats besides the point. We're singing this killer amazing duet october 6th (wednesday) i believe the concert starts at 7:30. Its at sonora highschool, GO RAIDERS! I encourage you all to come and cheer us on, it sounds AMAZING :)

525th post :D

you're beautiful.

i just embarked on an amazing singer, phil wickman.
if you've ever heard any of his songs, you know how pwoerful and lovely the lyrics are.
I just changed my profile song to one of his most amazing songs ever:)
if you really mean the lyrics and sing them whole heartidly, it can move your heart in ways it's never moved before. Gods so undescribable, He's absolutely beautiful...shining above all. The holy spirit in my life, all i want to do is just explode on people with love..and show everyone what amazing joy God brings.
isn't it awesome, how i can sin against God all the time..and yet he forgives me freely cause his grace and love is over-powering.
He's definitely the best role model anyone could have :)

re-invent yourself.

"That your life is so utterly without meaning, simply to survive you have to re-invent yourself. Cause if people can't find you, they can't dislike you."


WOW, you have no idea how much that quote related to me...
i was watching the movie Me and Orson Welles, and one of the main characters said that...and i just pressed the rewind button over and over again..cause that quote like spoke my life.
it's sad, but so truthful huh?

Letters to God.

Letters To God, have you seen this movie?
well if you haven't i strongly encourage you to go watch it now.
It made me cry my eyes out.
this goes on my list of movies i balled my eyes out:
my sisters keeper, titanic, greta, a walk to remember, and now letters to God.
It has the most amazing/beautiful message, God has overwhelming blessed me, and you..its not even funny.
This just shows how God can give a person pure joy, not happiness..cause happiness is only a momentary feeling..but joy lasts forever & ever..even through the hard times.
and this movie gives a perfect example at what joy looks like through the Lord.
ahh, so inspiring:)